It was suggested that for my blue mood I could try some anti-depressants…first of all, I rarely take headache medicine unless I just feel nauseas…I am not a big supporter of medicating for everything…and sorrow and pain is normal after what I’ve been through. Yeah I have days that are harder then others and the pain is really bad, I cry til my eyes are swollen….but I think that is good…I’m getting the pain out and just to make sure it stays out…I take three of these….
And if these don’t help and the pain is still really bad, I add a few of these….
All of these things combined usually snap me out of my blue mood in no time and they aren’t harmful to my body…..unless of course they run straight at me in full speed, that might hurt…
I am so grateful for the support my blog friends have shown me. It says so much about you that you can care about someone you’ve never met but perhaps it’s that human understanding of having gone through similar situations that bond us? Knowing the pain one is going through even though it’s not the same pain? I think this pain is normal, even though it’s not good to go through and I’d give anything to have my mom back and things normal again….this is life. It’s just hard when you think you’re moved on and suddenly you fall apart….a voice, a sound, a memory, a thought, an experience, a smell, something brings you crashing back down again just when you thought everything was ok and you were good to go again…Perhaps it is also a thought about your own mortality when it comes to a parent dying? I’ve watched grandparents die and while it was extremely sad, you still had your mom and dad…your core family….you were ok….but then your parent dies and your core family is weakened and you also start thinking- yikes….I’m next…..not a pleasant thought, but perhaps something that is contributing to the difficulty of losing my mom? I’m just guessing and by no means a professional but it seems logical.
I will get through this time and I’m sure there will be more days of sadness to come, but I’ll get through those also. It’s amazing what a good cry, a hug from your child, or a kiss from your fur baby can do for you….and soon my beloved Captain will be home and I’m always happy when I am with him..it’s good my friends…..it’s all good….
Until next time my friends….